I've been engaged in a small scale war with my offspring recently. Over the last week this young person who has placed little or no value on scholarship or studying for the past twelve years (chill Dad, I got a 'D' - I passed) has decided he wants to go to college. And he expects Daddy to pay for it.
I hate to say it folks, but I gave up on the school issue years ago out of frustration. I was an excellent student as a kid. I didn't even have to try. He could have been, too, but there was always something more important to do. I tried every punishment and incentive I could think of. I even gave him three months of what life was like when I was a kid. I pulled his game console and blocked all but three television stations and made the remote disappear so he had to get up and change the channels. Don't get me wrong, the kid is NOT dumb, he's just been lazy. Despite repeated efforts to stress the importance of studying and getting good grades, nothing improved.
I tried explaining the realities of life but my words had little effect. A) I am a public servant (b) in a southern state (c) who makes half (or less) of what officers in northern or western states make. Gotta love those 'right to work' states, or as I call them, 'right to fire your ass for no good reason and no collective bargaining' states.
Due to issues in my own past, such as the lack of, or simply poor, parenting, I never really learned to handle money or invest it. As a result I don't have any. My wife and I live paycheck to paycheck and most of the time we are one paycheck away from being tossed out on the street. "But Dad, tuition is only $5000 a semester." As you can see, dear readers, paying for college is simply not an option. Neither is the $700 apartment he wants to get because he wants to go to school in the same upstate town as all his friends. Yeah, it's nice that the place is furnished and the utilities and cable are included. It still doesn't change the fact that I can't fund it.
As much as I owe it to her, I can't pay for my older daughter's tuition so what makes him think I can pay for his? This has been a very frustrating week, but I did learn something I didn't know before. If I should die in the line of duty both of my kids would get a free ride through college. Every time I get into a dangerous situation and my wife complains or tells me how crazy I am I simply reply, "I don't fear death. In fact, I welcome it just to see what, if anything, is on the other side." Of course, this only serves to get her fired up and launches her on a tirade detailing how I don't care about her or my children. While I do not fear death and even welcome it eventually, my children will just have to figure out other options. Accepting death doesn't necessarily mean I'm ready to try it on anytime soon.
I have also told my son my life story - how my mother made me pay rent from the time I was 14 years old, how I worked three jobs at one time when I was sixteen, and how I signed on with the U.S. Army when I was seventeen. I have been paying my own way for 32 years. I gave him the talk about how it's time to step up and learn to be a man and take care of himself. Everything I DO have I have struggled to get. Some of it I am still struggling to keep.
I spent time talking to him about other options for him, like enlisting in some branch of the military and exchanging his patriotic services for a government paid education. We talked National Guard, Air National Guard and Coast Guard Reserve. When he discovered he would have to attend basic and advanced training prior to starting school he swept that idea off the table. If he did this, he argued, he would end up a whole year behind his friends.
This brings me to something else I have noticed in recent years. Patriotism and a desire to serve one's country - even for a short time - seem to be rare commodities when dealing with Generation Y, or Z or whatever the hell the call themselves now. Yes, I know many fine examples of these groups are bravely and valiantly serving in all branches of the service, but there seems to be less emphasis placed on these qualities by the majority of their fellows.
As has been the case throughout our history together, I can't get this kid to see reason. He is still making plans as though he believes Daddy will miraculously come up with a bucket load of cash and all will be right with the world.
I'll tell you right here, right now, son - It. Ain't. Going. To. Happen.
However, I am sorry and I do love you, with all my heart. Even though you won't be able to see it through your disappointment and anger.
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